@6:52 pm
im worried.insecure.paranoid.
maybe e past
that haunts still..
N i cant bring maself
to go thru diz shit again..
well..it is still new..
i noe..
but seriously..something inside me..
tellin me tat its gona happen again..
so shud i stop walkin to e door?
that is locked?
well..tat is only ma assumption..
wat if i realised tat
e door is widely open..
to welcome me?
by then..
it will be too late..
yea true..
i should not repeat the mistake again..
but im weak inside..
n the wound..
its not fully heal yet..
maybe im worried about losing..
i really do..
tats y im still sceptic in continuing e journey..
im still on the starting line..
i used to trip n fall n bleed..
but i i thot i cud make it to e end..
but i failed~
n i have a hard time consoling maself..
so now...
start ol over?
wat if it happened again?
i dun think i cud deal wit it..
i dun wana repeat e mistake tat i used to do..
it hurts n it still do..
shouldnt judge..
wen u dun even noe e person..
haha..
one word..im juz insecure..
e confidence..
its dead after e incidence..
sad but true..
part of me sae yes..
n at the same time
the past wake me up
from e joy tat im having..
e few seconds of joy..
its gone..
i want..but i dun dare..
im still worried..
afraid of failure..
yea..i do..
but e conversation nvr fails
to make me =D...
but e past tat stop e excitement..
hmphh..
im scared.
scared of losin.
so shud i continue e journey?
not noeing of e obstacles
tat i gona go thru..
wat if its for good?
well..its still an assumption..
gamble? i cant afford to.
im hanging..
hanging for an answer..
well..theres nobody fault..
its juz me..
e insecure bitch~
:embrace:
Labels: loneliness is ma companion
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