@2:58 pm
im back home! =0
Olryte..juz had a chat with mastura anuar..one of ma craziest, funny, laid back, cant be bothered sometimes and pweety babe! haa..we were talkin bout anithink under the sun..school,work, n how much we miss each other..n its all because of me coz im buzy wit ma workin life..damn..do i have a choice? i wana earn money. haa..n she start to jog~ chey~ mas jogging? am i hearing things? haa..ehk..tk salah per..healthy lifestyle ehk mas..dah pandai~ haa.. yea..wana achieve those abs huh? can lahz babe..with fathu around..'nothing is impossible! '(sound familiar~haa) but had to stop coz she need to kol her booboo~ =D yea. im so glad that they are getting strong together..so hapie for u gal~ really. u deserve it babe. :)
ouh ya.todae im not werkin becoz firstly,i woke up late. damn! they shud wake me up.i mean ma parents.they went to werk first and left me at home. we are suppose to go together.nvm.i look at e time.its 10am. work start at 11am. shit.im late! so i quickly went to the ladies(ladies?),bath,grab ma cloths,iron ( juz 2 min ironin), pack ma bag, tie ma hair n i dash off~ while walkin,i kol ma dad.
me: "aba! asal tak kejot ela? kan ela dah bilang niari ela kejer. ela lambat seh"
Dad: "ohh alamakz! aba luper lah. aba stuck pat custom skrng.jam terok.."
me: "huh? alahz. den i juz go maself then.."
Upon hearing that, i get more irritated as i have to go off to work maself. k it doesnt end dere. i took e cab n i realised tat ma passport is in e car!! hmph~ yes.its in e bloody car. so do i have a choice? i kol raihan n told him wat happen n i cant come to werk todae. so went to city square n buy some apparels! haa.. yea.went shopping. :D
btw, tried to stick wit e jobs tat i had. but dad doesnt approve,so i juz stick wit adidas for now.
haa..something happen went i went for an interview in one of this company. met at boon lay MRT station for e interview. n they brought us to the company. theres these 3 minah came for e interview.
(during e interview with one of e minah)
e lady: " i saw u before..u ever come for our interview ryte?
e minah: "ya! ya! i did!"
e lady: " but u didnt come for the training if im not mistaken.."
e minah: " ouh ya i didnt! coz i have something on.."
e lady: "if im not wrong this is ur third tyme comin here ryte?
e minah: "ouh ya~"
e lady: "k k u may wait"
hahaha..i burst out laughing sia..i mean..how can u come for e interview again wen u didnt attend e trainin wen u suppose to..n its her third tyme sia! n for ol those three interview that she went, she didnt come for e trainin. n how sure she is tat she gona get the job. and obviously, she didnt get it~ n she start showing tantrum. k its crappy. she start cursing and scolding the in-charge. sayin that shes buyers and should tell her earlier if she didnt get it. i was like.. omg! hey gal! are u nuts? its an interview..if u dun get it..den juz back off lahz. and in the first place u noe tat its ur THIRD TYME. so y waste ur tyme? so yaa. she start shouting and talk to her other 2 minahz bout it. showing ol those "power" tat she had.but wats e used? in e end do u still get the job?..
hmph.so e kecoh n crappy. den i was like.. "nvm lahz,try other job instead, maybe becoz u didnt attend their trainin dulu..n they are worried that u gona do it again this tyme.." n she start cursing again.haa.so wat did i do?.smile n juz keep quiet.haa.tak kuaser.
sometimes, something are juz not meant to be told. sometimes u trust a fren n let everything out n expect it to be between both of u. but it didnt. yea, its gettin out of ur nerve but nvm. since the trust has been broken, there will be no next tyme.simple as tat. pissed? yea i am.
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@12:16 pm
hey guyz! =Di juz change ma blogskin coz its kinda hard to even read ma previous entries in ma blog. wen i went in,i had a hard tyme reading ma OWN blog.hee. but e previous skin was awesome n thx to ma BESTY mastura. yea. n she gona shout at me for changing it. hee. k k deal with me later wen we mit up ehk. haa.. ouh ya!! kinda feel sowie for not attending her dance comp. but i saw ur new blog.awesome! sowie i was werkin gal. =(
ouh ya. currently im reading a book: PAULO COELHO-Eleven Minutes. great book! its regarding a brazilian girl. who used to be a naive, humble and down to earth. but things started to change when she grow older. she was a gorgeous n lovely angel. But everytime she wanted to commit wit love, she failed to do so.And at her tender age,she had convince herself tat it is a terrible thing,n will juz make her suffer. there she goes.finding fame and fortune on Rio. instead, she became a prostitute. Life started to change by then. till she met a painter who told her that she has "light" in her. n he painted her. but due to her despairing past, she had to put on a test, pursuing her path of darkness(being a prostitute) or RISKING EVERYTHING to find her "inner light"........... haa.. n i never thot that reading really make u feel good. n im starting to read now.haa..weird but true~ nice~ =D
currently werking at Adidas.Tampiness Mall. yea.great colleague.werkin wit raihan( e-i-wana-achieve-ma-dream-kinda-guy)*jaw drop*.Hui Ying(e-blur-but-super-hyper-lady)tho shes blur..she's e in-charge!,Eugene. (e-aww-guy),wan ling(e-ya-lor-i-noe-mah-china-gal) n Sharon(e-mystery-gal) huhur. so ya! but most of the time they will tend to speak chinese becoz of wan ling. she has difficulty communicating in english. aniwae,most of the tyme,we are dealing wit chinese customer.so its ok! ouh ya~ i gona get an adidas shoe for free~ part of e uniform.n u can choose any shoes tat u want.but not from e heritage.hmph~ n i choose a shoes tat cost $164 . haa..n i got it for free. cool kan? =) haa. n had another job currently.tats it.dun feel to elabrate.hee.
ouh ya. these two jobs tat im dealing wit now will be juz for a few months. earn some money. wen i think im stable,i will go into Standard Chartered Bank. And tat will be ma career life. ya..ppl might be asking..end of studies? haa..no! of coure not..taking a part time course while im werkin. yaa. this is to secure me on a better salary in e future. dad is ryte,i shud start werkin SCB so tat by 20+ yrs old. i have the experience n i get e hang of it.n having a better pay. now its ol about experience n of course certs. haa..80% of ma mind now is bout werkin n money. haa. 'serious?seram siak ako~ haa..' k k enuf saed.
having a handbook to remind me of all e debts tat need to be settle. especially:bills. gona used back ma starhub line soon. haa.mcm banyak bende gtu kan..k nvm~ so e first thing to do now.Work! n wait till 31 march 2008. yea!
ouh ya decided to close down ma friendster. its dead! haa..its rotting n crappy. no point keeping it. n having to verify ol those emails n generate new a/c. troublesome. e best wae is to DELETE~! =D
current mood: calm n euphoria =)
Qoute of the dae :
Having a logical plan in life is essential.
*adios~ *
Labels: lethargic
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@2:50 am
no one can harm anyone else
coz each of us are responsible for our own feelings
we create n build those emotions
n dun blame anyone for wat we feel..
"no one loses anyone,becoz no one owns anyone"
those familiar conversations...
those repeated words..
those gestures..
those vows..
'those' were juz another moment spent.
hard to swallow.
those 'light' tat i saw.
was juz an imaginary.
naive n weak?
i was.
n i hate it.
but things started to change.
n im glad i did.
well..life have been super tiring for me..
having 2 jobs currently..
coz i wana achieve "it " asap!
something tat i want for so long..
n i hope i gona have it soon
wit ol ma savings..
tiring but fun tho..
coz u get to earn money..
spend it on ur needs..
n no one can stop u from spending it..
hee..but nid to save for "it" tho..
n u meet new ppl around.. =)
btw..tomolo mornin im werkin..
till nyte..n im not sleepin at this hour..
(-_-)nvm!
most of ma tyme spent were on work..
wake up in e morn..
work..(thx god i have a bunch of nice colleague)
rest n work again..
but i like tho..
tyme were not wasted..
no more dwelling bout e past..
earning money..
tats wat im focusin on..
juz wana sae..
i miss ma karma gals..
sorie guys..
didnt get to meet up wit u ppl..
been werkin like everydae now..
but will update u guys on ma new no. aite!
n seri!! i miss u too babe!
pri sch besty? haa..ouh tk perlu ehk..k
=)
life have been simple.
n im glad it did.
sometime less is more.
dad bought a new car.
stream i guess.
have to contribute $120 monthly for e car.
anywae its for our own good.
n now its ma turn to contribute.
yea. :)
p/s: gal! i change skin coz its difficult to read those entries..pfft! :s
ive been watchin a few action movies. nice~
n ma spine start to ache back..
it worries me somehow..
yaa..nid to go for e checkup again..
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@8:10 pm
current mood: Headache n messed
3 more daes to final semester..
yea..scary? kinda..
but i wana end it soon!
get over n done with..
n here i come..
tyme to earn money!
work like theres no tomolo..
really nid to occupy those tyme..
to avoid all the unnessary thots that has been botherin..
life? it has been hmmm..yaa..fine.. school is over! n currently im waiting for ma exam..which is on monday and wednesdae..beem studyin like sh*t.. cant wait to vomit everything out on mondae..hopefully i dun go blank! haa.. ni if that were to happen..damn! dun even wana think bout it..horror! :S hmm.. went to centrepoint for an interview at Esprit! but juz an interview.. how was it? hmm it was ok..as in seriously oklahz..haa..juz waiting for their kols early next week..u guys better kol me! ouh tkleh suker2 ehk? kk.. currently been contacting with ol ma long lost friends..never thot there will be communication between us.. wat a coincidence.. but they are still e same.. funny humanz! nice~ ;Dmind has not been in their normal state currently..lots of questions has been lingerin in ma mind..one after another..if only theres an answer to ol those sh*ts.. tried to act as if im not affected by the things that had been happenin currently..tried to occupy e tyme n juz dun wana think of it..but it seems like a shadow..it has been followin every step.. how i wish it doesnt exist? how i wish i cud avoid.. yea.. true.. sometimes being too nice is not good.. im juz tired n confused.. n this moment..this particular time.. i juz have to swallow everything..Again i might sae.. tho i tried to be much more careful this time..but i still trip n fall.. n why am i confused? e fact that they show like theres nothing happen.. the ignorance that were shown.. itz juz doesnt seems ryte..n most of the tyme..mind juz went blank..if only i have an answer for ol this..i want one moment in time..
one particular moment..
where i cud be in a state..
where theres no worries..
no insecurites..
no wounds..
N only a moment of bliss..
e moment..
i wud embrace..
Labels: headache n messed
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@9:58 pm
sometimes in life..
u juz have to adapt to things that had happened..
be it for good or bad..
ever heard of a phrase saein..
"sometimes being too good will juz suffocate u"
this moment..
im juz muddle..
i dun even noe whether im doin e ryte ting or not..
e ignorance juz pissed me off..
im juz tired of pretendin..
tryin to heal others..
when im juz creating a new wound for maself..
hmmm...
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@7:19 pm
one word to describe everithing.. "paralyzed"
cant believe that theres a link..wat small world i wud sae..
it was one of ma fren bestfren..
yaa..well..sad to sae..it was not a nice news tat i heard about "someone"..
lots of negative comments..
was dissapointed..
i thot "someone" wud somehow buried the soreness in him..
maybe yes..
well.. i cant sae much..coz i dun really noe wat happened on the other side..
hmph...
school gona end soon! adios! =D
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@10:32 pm
This week gona be a study week for me. one more week to go n lots of chapters to cover. hopefully i gona make it thru. Been studyin accounting for the past few daes. Need to touch on ma auditing soon!! n lots of things has been happening in life.. but copin well.. One after another things happen........hmmmm.... well.. this is life.. i dun wish to complaint.. juz let things fade n flow n hopefully disappear n be invisible..
Full of hatred & painInstead of joy and blissWe just have to live the days as they are set out and not live in the past.
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