stuck in this room of mine...
pondering over what have been done n saed....
status changes, n to make it better..."single" ... changed in a split second... well done... speechless..
this is wat life is...different people have thier own wae of handling n coping things in life...
so dun judge or complaint...we cud juz see n analyse...
someone saed.. " he will do juz fine...but can u cope with it or not?"
hmmmm...well...its e matter of the heart... whether i cud handle this or not...let it juz be in me...
sometimes it kept me pondering...
after e incident...u msg n sae... "dun sae enuf is enuf..i will olwaes be by ur side.."
i smiled while reading those msges...
for that moment i thot u understand...but i trap by those words...i was wrong...
every single thing that happened...it has been in him...everything was kept...n one point...u juz throw it out.....n it juz make me go silence...simply lost of words...
nvm...different ppl have thier own wae of accepting things...
u scolded me for not telling everything about ma problems n ma family...
sometimes...not everything can be shared...
but i tried to change n tried to vomit out little by little bout e things in ma mind...
i start to tell things bout ma life...
coz i thot im ready to let everything out...
bout ma family...
ma work..
but now u saed... " maybe i cud not handle e pressure anymore "
i dun blame you........ maybe if i were to be in your shoes...it will be the same...
juz that dun saae that u cud when u cant...
dun force me to tell everything but at e end of the dae....this is wat i get in return...
dun get things wrong...i noe everything has already ended n nothing cud have change that...
coz for that i dun hope...
well...no point to even dwell...
decision has been made....everything has already been saed...
i dun wish to sae whoever fault it is...
but i will juz sae...whatever happen, has its own reason...
n i believe...this is a test for me...for i thot i have alreeady settle down to one thing...
but i was wrong...
He is still testing me...n will accept it with an open hand n heart..=)
but seriously, dun sae u cud handle ol this, wen u really cant...
dun sae u will be by me wen deep down u noe u gona let it go one dae...
dun sae about what gona happen in a few years tyme wen u cant adapt to it now...
u told me u cud not adapt to Them....by thinking of solving it...u decided to run awae from this....
is it fair for me?
do i deserve this? for something that i didnt sae n i dun even wish it gona happened?
yeahh...
once again...no point dwelling...
i will make do with it...
tyme for me to go off to work now...
its 5am...
wen u feel so tired...but u cant sleep...
wen u love someone...but it goes to waste...
cud it worst...?
hmmm..=)
life have to move on...
i'll do just fine...=)

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